Breeder

A friend of mine jokingly called me a breeder this morning. She pointed out that I managed to find a way to have more children, even when hubby got the old snip-snip.

Do you think I should point out to her that adoption isn't exactly cutting edge? Or let her continue to think that I invented it?

Already feeling better...

On the day after I decided/was asked to leave my job (not due to performance but due to budget cuts), I went to the Dr's and my blood pressure was down from 160/90 to 130/60.

Maybe I'll even feel like exercising again.

yet another long overdue post

But news!! Oh the news!!

I'm leaving my job: Onward to greener pastures! Last day is January 29th.

On to full time private practice as a therapist.

Glory day.

That is all.

wow..

This one really is me. Except for looking like Marilyn Monroe and all..

Your result for Are You a Jackie or a Marilyn? Or Someone Else? Mad Men-era Female Icon Quiz...

You Are a Marilyn!

You are a Marilyn -- "I am affectionate and skeptical."

Marilyns are responsible, trustworthy, and value loyalty to family, friends, groups, and causes. Their personalities range broadly from reserved and timid to outspoken and confrontative.

How to Get Along with Me

• * Be direct and clear


• * Listen to me carefully


• * Don't judge me for my anxiety


• * Work things through with me


• * Reassure me that everything is OK between us


• * Laugh and make jokes with me


• * Gently push me toward new experiences


• * Try not to overreact to my overreacting.

What I Like About Being a Marilyn

• * being committed and faithful to family and friends


• * being responsible and hardworking


• * being compassionate toward others


• * having intellect and wit


• * being a nonconformist


• * confronting danger bravely


• * being direct and assertive

What's Hard About Being a Marilyn

• * the constant push and pull involved in trying to make up my mind


• * procrastinating because of fear of failure; having little confidence in myself


• * fearing being abandoned or taken advantage of


• * exhausting myself by worrying and scanning for danger


• * wishing I had a rule book at work so I could do everything right


• * being too critical of myself when I haven't lived up to my expectations

Marilyns as Children Often

• * are friendly, likable, and dependable, and/or sarcastic, bossy, and stubborn


• * are anxious and hypervigilant; anticipate danger


• * form a team of "us against them" with a best friend or parent


• * look to groups or authorities to protect them and/or question authority and rebel


• * are neglected or abused, come from unpredictable or alcoholic families, and/or take on the fearfulness of an overly anxious parent

Marilyns as Parents

• * are often loving, nurturing, and have a strong sense of duty


• * are sometimes reluctant to give their children independence


• * worry more than most that their children will get hurt


• * sometimes have trouble saying no and setting boundaries

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hungry

I hate dieting. Even when I'm not calling it "dieting," but instead, "eating healthy," I know what it is. It's dieting. It's dieting to look like everyone else. All those impossibly skinny, flat-chested, hip-less soccer moms out there. All those women who look like they have it all together, in their shiny cars, with their clean and well-behaved children.

THEIR hair is always washed and perfectly styled. Hell, they can wear a ball cap and look good.

THEIR children never throw tantrums because their socks hurt their "baby pinky toe!"

THEIR husbands are the fodder for eye-rolling sighs, "Its just so much easier when he's out of town.." they say.

Why am I so freakin' different?

Or maybe not.

Maybe they are skinny because they don't eat because they're scared their husbands will leave them.

Maybe their children save up the tantrums for when they get home.

Maybe they base their self-worth on how useless they can imagine their husbands to be.

Or maybe not.

Maybe we're all flawed. Maybe I am a round, well-rounded woman, with four awesome kids, a husband who I know loves me no matter how chubby I am, no matter what kind of sloppy housekeeper I am, no matter how the children behave.

Maybe I'm worthwhile, regardless of what I perceive myself to look like.

Maybe my husband is telling me the truth when he says that I'm sexy and beautiful, even though I may feel like a fat cow.

Maybe.

Juggling

Juggling two jobs, four kids, one more freakin' graduate class, and one tight-knit school/community that requires a LOT of volunteerism equals nervous breakdown.

Just sayin'.

overheard

8 year old son gets a phone call... Here's the one-sided conversation..

C: I'm about to go outside, but I can talk for a minute.\
C: So, who are you voting for?
C: I mean, who are your parents voting for?
C: Well, we're voting for Barack Obama.
C: Yeah, we're Democrats.
C: Well, I have no use for them, that's why.